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Please Forgive Me

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Please forgive me

For everything I've done and for all the things I've yet to do.
I'm a trillion mistakes gift wrapped into a human disguise. I'm a burning bridge bringing down anything and everything I can get my fire-licked hands upon. I'm a suicidal whale, beaching myself on the shore to cause mayhem and confusion. I'm a sinking ship creating currents to draw people in and drown them alongside myself.

Because that's not who I really am

I don't want to do that to you, but I don't know how to do anything else.
I'm a little lost puppy following the only thing that seems familiar. I'm a broken record cursed to replay the same thing over and over again. I'm a picture caught and frozen into place, always to tell the same story. I'm a demon bent on getting into Hell, making the same mistake time after time again.

Teach me

I want to be different, but I don't know how to change.
I know you're just the right person to show me the way: because of all the changes you've made in your life to be a better person; because you know me better than anyone else in the whole world and can show me exactly where I need to change and how to do it; because I might put up a fight at first, but you know precisely where my weakness lies and how to manipulate it to get me to do what needs to be done.

Show me

What love really is, because I honestly don't know anything about it.
I have only ever read about it in books and seen it in movies. I can only imagine the feelings and emotions and drama that go along with it. I can only dream about one day finding it with someone I care about, someone who knows me very well and vice versa, some amazing knight who can save me, someone like you.

Love me

For who I am and who I can be, not for what I've done.
I have wishes and dreams for a future that seems out of reach. I have a strong shell of a body, a shield to protect me, but my insides are battered and broken and dying. I have too many ups and downs, but I try hard to control and stop them. I have a bubble of personal space around me I use to keep people out, but you're the only one who figured out how to pop it.

I'm sorry

I didn't mean to hurt you.
I didn't think my actions had consequences against you since you always seemed so bullet proof. I didn't realize your armor was all talk and no protection. I didn't understand that you were only human. I didn't notice that I had a dagger in my hand and I was carving my initials into your skin, your heart, your soul. I didn't believe I could be so cruel and that you could get so hurt.

Please forgive me
Blarg...
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PseudonymLizzieDeLov's avatar
I suppose I can forgive this and the 23 idiots.... I suppose I can forgive.